“Vanity or Health?” Which will I choose? You’ve got to read to the end to find out. 😂
It’s about radical self-love. 💖
Okay, deep breath 🌬️ and in I go, into being crazy vulnerable and really real about something that’s been holding me back. I’m ready to dive deeper into what my healthiest self could look like; a self whose body feels so free and amazing I can barely imagine it right now. But, I have to choose – my vanity or my healthiest self.
You see, it’s my vanity about my face that has been winning for a long time. I spent 12 years working a horse farm. No amount of sun screen was ever enough to completely protect my skin. I knew one day I’d have tons of face wrinkles because of it. I just didn’t think it would be so soon. Since I’ve lost 53 pounds I can really notice it. And wowza, has it stopped me in my tracks. No way have I wanted to lose more weight and look like a prune. Even if losing more weight could be really good for the rest of my body.
Some of the thoughts that have pinged through my brain during this internal debate have really revealed how much further I can go to radically love myself exactly as I am.
“If I want to date again who would want a wrinkle faced woman?”
“Do I really need to lose more weight, even if I know it could be great for my aging body?”
“Will I get ugly?”
“Should I put more weight back on to plump out my face again?” (Answer is always, NO WAY!)
“Am I seriously this obsessed with physical appearance?”
“Am I in any way attractive anymore?”
“I miss my 25 year old self.”
WOWZA! I am a HUGE proponent for everyone to love themselves exactly as they are. I am a HUGE proponent for making choices that help us create our best selves. I am a HUGE proponent for recognizing our SELF is about soooo much more than our bodies.
I am also, quite clearly, a woman who is trying to believe in herself more, recognize her worth, find her beauty again, and radically love every part – the dark, the light, the wrinkled, the strong, the weak – ALL OF ME!
So, I am choosing my health! I am learning to love my wrinkles for the stories they tell. I am going all into turn my body into its strongest, healthiest, most Badass self. I am choosing to believe I am beautiful. I am wrapping myself in the love, hope and healing I strive to bring to everyone else.
That means my goal, now spoken publicly, is to lose the final 15lbs I’ve been considering losing by my birthday on July 30. Get ready to watch my journey as I go for my finish line! 💪💪💪💪
One thought on “Vanity or Health? Which will I choose?”
Lara, I am fully behind your sharing. Seems to me the flip side of your vulnerability is your courage. I admire your perspective, wisdom, self-awareness, authenticity, and resolve. You are attentive to the whole you, wrinkles and all.
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