Why oh why do we not do the things that bring us the most joy more often? Why do we put off the things that energize us, that inspire us, and that make us smile? Why do we spend our days longing to spend even just a little time following our bliss? Why do we insist on filling our days with only the things we have to do, leaving no time for the things we most want to do? Why do we not love ourselves enough to say yes to seeking joy?
I’m pretty sure if I could come up with the answers to all of these questions I could radically change my life. Or at least get closer to clearing out the things that block me from saying yes to me. And as I get clearer I could spend more time each day seeking joy.
Tonight I rode one of my horses, Karoly, for the first time in 6 to 8 weeks. Now the silliness of it is that I own/manage the horse boarding farm where I keep him. I see him at least 5 days a week. I could be riding for even a little while everyday I am there. But I don’t.
My heart filled with this singing kind of peaceful joy as I rode him bareback tonight. I felt the stress I’ve been feeling melt away a little bit more with every step he took. My breath slowed and deepened as I allowed myself to drop into sync with him. I laughed and chatted with my student as she rode alongside of me. I allowed myself to just simply and very profoundly be in the moment for a good hour.
What if I did this everyday? Would I be able to flow better through the rest of my life by giving myself permission to ride everyday? Would I maybe get more done by fueling myself first? I’m betting I would experience a great deal more peace and joy if I spent more time on the back of a horse.
I am feeling very grateful that I had this gift of time with Karoly tonight. I begin my settling into sleep with a smile on my face thinking of this lovely time. Oh what a gift!